well so much to say ..and where to start, first of all it doesn;t matter
if u take five minutes outta your day to read this, or not. I just wanted
this to be said, and even if ONE person reads this, it has all been worth
the effort. Second, I want everyone to know that what I am about to say is just
a discussion, so if u think of yourself as an open-minded person, then maybe
u would like to read it. I am very open minded and just sharing my view based on
experinces.
ok well here it goes….well u see why would I say that people should not
make sex commercialized like this “myfirttime and many other porn
places do”? oh it is not cuz I am some saint from the holy christain community,
that is the exact opposite. All I truly am..is a lost soul,
cuz I am addicted to porn and u couldn;t imagine the things that go in my head
the ironic thing is that I know it is bad for me…(why is it soo bad u ask?) free
love man.e on! no..cuz cuz it stops me from being the true possible
great guy I can be. It stops me from all my dreams, it is an addiction like
crack drugs..just doesn;t seem that way…well u see I think sex shouldn;t
be something u exploit, because I can tell u something about all these articles
on this webpage 1.)either (and mostly) they are false someone’s imagination
2.) what someone actually did..u know 2 sec job..didn;t even know who they did
but I think if all these people just had sex w/ that one person that
they love..their spouses their love of their life…I can assure u that
they would be sooooo much more happier, because to share and MAKE LOVE
with that one special one…will make it truly special, because you two are
sharing something..sharing and maybe even wanting to create a life
between you two..love is the strongest emotion, and if u have love u have everything.
don;t get me wrong, most people get into all this hard corn porn cuz
they feel depressed..I think that is what is up w/ me. Ironically I have family that
loves me soo much, and until recently (when I told them) they had no idea that
for sooo many years as a kid i had this addiction problem.
kids can be very good hiders..what is inside their heads, and how scared they feel
it is sad cuz they feel soo helpless. and they feel scared to talk
to anyone about this.
so I ask myself..is it societies fault? or the individual? I came
to a conclusion..it is both..I should have a free will to deciede
whatever..i should have some self control, but then u think
when society (that includes everyone) u all play a part in this.
even if u don;t support porn, if u stay quiet, that is bad enough.
society teaches us at a young age all this porn..I am NOT saying u make
us another puritain community and outlaw porn..just educate much much more to kids..talk
about it openly..and get the child molesters and other people some help
and I hope one day that me and my wife will love each other and make passionate
love (and yes be crazy and sexual..but that will come in time and be w/ that
special angel of mine) and hopefully people will respect each other, strip clubs and
all that stuff desgrade women and men..hopefully we can all
be human beings..and not be so corrupt..Just think of it this way
suppose u r a guy that thinks women are meat and toys..remember there
was a time when u were little that u never felt that way..and deep down..u loved
that time..when guys were guys..and girls were girls..flowers and hugs
were special.. that time :o) i know u all won;t admit.. it..but u don;t have
to, cuz u are your own judge, and that is the best sentence..your OWN
judgement..when u are on that bed about to leave the world..u will look
back..and see was that the life u wanted :o) as that one back street boys
song I am hearing right now on radio..Love is all I have to give
well u think about this..I could be 8, 12, 15, 19, 24, 45, 88
u never know. but it is sad I think that if a kid like me is going
through all this, I don;t expect anyone to hear of care what
I say in this document…it might not even affect anyone of u.
but at least I gave it a TRY :o) I am gonna try to help myself.
I been trying to write this on this site, but never had the guts…
today is my first step in changing
if u read this far thank you dearly, who knows each person counts
just remember when u see the tears in your babies eyes..”daddy why didn’t you
do this…. husband I wish u had…” and then to yourself ” I wish I had….”
take this moment to just look around
thanks
sincerely,
a product of society and inner confusion
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