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Well it started a few days before my birthday, which I spent with
my parents ;).
When I went on the train back to my room in another city,
where i studied, I was horny as hell. I was not dating
anyone, because I always was (and still am) a bit shy
among girls/women.
I was soon getting 20 without ever doing it. So I decided I
would try something within a few weeks. On that moment a
beautiful woman came in the train and sat a few seats
further ahead. I always liked being on the train ;).
So like always I stared a little, without getting noticed.
But then she stood up and left, just my luck I thought :(.
After a while she came back and set next to me, it was a
real thrill for me. So I decided to play things further.
I looked at her eyes for so long, so that when she finally
noticed me, she was the one that first looked away.
I wanted her to know that I was attracted to her.
The same thing happend multiple times.
But I made sure no one else noticed me. It was crowdy and
that made it more thrilling ;).
When the train finally stopped, we both stepped out at the
same time. I had to think of something to say quickly.
So in my clumsy way I asked her for the time. Se pointed
at a large clock above us ;), but kept standing near me.
So I quickly raised another question, if she would like to
drink something with me. She was willing and we went to
the diner at the station. We looked in eachothers eyes and
it was still thrilling for me. Never thought it would come
to this.
Then she asked me for my age and how old I thought she
was. Apparently she was 37, but I didn’t mind at all.
She gave me her telephone number.
For some reason I forgot, the same day I went back to my
parents. That night I could not sleep very well and I
thought things over. I had a plan ;).
The next morning at 8:00 am I called her up, thinking she
must still be asleep, how she would react at my phonecall.
But it was alright when I asked her if I could come over
that evening. I had to take the train back, which passed
her city along the way. Again I was thrilled when she
welcomed me at the station. During the trip to her place
she was smirking the whole time and she wear no bra.
I knew something would happen, but kept frozen still.
At her place we started getting eachother clothes of
immediately. We went to her bedroom and discovered we
had no condom with us. But that was alright she said, she
would take some medicine the next morning. I was scared.
I didn’t know how to start, if I would satisfy her.
The moment she and I came, I was not enjoying it at all :(.
But then she sucked my penis and I was in heaven ;).
When we rested I got scared again, maybe I got her pregnant.
She asked me if I wanted children and I was terrified :(.
Before we started I made it clear I was not seeking a
relation, but she was now saying that a relationship grows.
She asked me to spent the night, but because her daughter
(age 18!) would come home the next morning I did not stay.
At the station she asked for a kiss and I was thinking
were this would lead to and kissed her forehead and said
goodbye.
The following months I was misserable.
I didn’t handle the situation well, because she was kind.
But I was scared for a relationship and/or having a child.
I wrote her one letter, because I promised her a picture of
myself. After which I got a letter back saying she did
not want any contact with me again. She felt like a whore
and was afraid that her boyfriend found out.
She told me she had a friend, but he was not really her
boyfriend. I felt rotten.
Now and then I think of her, of her body, her sucking
capabilities ;). But I never heard/seen her again.
Upto this day I don’t have a real date. I only go out with
my friends ;). I don’t mind I do not have a relationship.
But, oh boy.. I miss the sex.
I often laugh in myself. Because in my teener years I
thought having a relationship is the highest priority.
After I have seen many bad relationships of my friends.
Now I only think of the sex as primary concern, a good
relationship comes later.
But how can I go up to a girl and say I want her for sex
only? Should I lie and establish a relationship first?

But I am still taking the train so hopefully.. 😉

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