Where it happened: Raddison Hotel in Flint, MI
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 10
Category: Straight
I don’t have a story that I was held passionatly or that it
was just curiosity. My first time was not one that I would
want to remember. Because my first sexual experience, I was
gang raped.
It happend on March 24, 1992 at the
Raddison hotel in Flint, MI. I was on a school field trip.
It happend when I was walking to a lower level in the hotel
to visit my brother who was also there. When this guy came out
of one of the rooms and asked where was I going.
(I could be a real Btch and tell you his name was Dion,
But I won’t do that.) I told him that I was just
going for a walk. That’s when he tried to get me to come
into his room. I told him no, and turned to walk away, that’s
when three other guys came from the room and dragged me on
the inside. Dion put his hand between my legs and said, “You’re
not going any where until you give me a my boys some of this
sweet p_ssy.” All I did, and I fault myself for it to this
day, was FREEZE UP. I tried to scream but nothing came out.
I tried to fight, but I was to weak to move. I was about to
be gang raped and all I could do is freeze up! Only Dion
actully penitrated me, but the others just did cruel and
painful things to me while I was tied up with sheets with
a pillow case over my head.
I was 17 years old, about to graduate
from high school, and I managed to stay a virgin until…
well until those sick bastards decided otherwise. I was going
to save my self for my husband with out a doubt! But after I
was raped once at 17, and twice again at age 18, and MANY
other attempts. my attitude towards sex had changed. I hate
to admitt it but I became very cold hearted and permiscuious.
I didn’t look at it as love making, I looked at is as
“Just something to do” Most of the time I couldn’t stand
even being touched my a man, because it brought back to many
sour memories.
Until I met C.F.D. a year ago. He was a perfect gentleman, a
perfect dream. I couldn’t figure out what in the world did I do
good to be rewarded with him. We were friends for a couple
of months and out of the blue, I don’t know where it came
from, I was so much in love with this man I didn’t know what
to do! And then it happened! I made love for the very first
time in my life! And it was beatiful! I was actually in union
with someone I loved and someone who probally loved me ten
time as much. I have finally made love, I wasn’t raped, and
I wasn’t in a situation where I allowed myself to be
disrespected. And it felt good!
This is a message to all women and girls who were victims
of a rape. I made a big mistake because I didn’t report it.
I was to afraid of what others would think. But all I did is
let a very sick individual back on the streets to do the
same thing to another woman. It would be wrong for me to lie
to you and tell you that you will be alright and that
the pain will go away. Because it has been over four
years for me, but if you were to ask me, I would
swear it happend yesterday. But with my new found love
in my life, he is helping me to realize that it was
not my fault and that I will be strong once again.
C.F.D. is helping me to accept it not as a tradgety,
but as a experience to help me become a stronger woman.
And for that I thank him and I will love him for life.
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