Where it happened: his parent's living room
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 10
Category: Straight
I grew up in a strong christian family. My father is a minister and both my parents taught my siblings and I good morals and values. I was the typical “sweet and innocent girl.” Being a straight A student, I was very goal oriented. I did not want to do anything to disgrace my parents. I love my family. I was a faithful believer in my faith and I did not want to stray off my path.
When I started high school things were different. It seemed as if everyone was “doing it.” I remember the slumber parties my friends and I had our freshman year. The subject always turned to “boys.” One of my friends said that she was thinking about having sex with her boyfriend. I was like, “Are you crazy?” I gave her the “mother lecture” that I was known for. My girlfriends knew that I not believe in premarital sex. I think it is wrong. Sex is a scared gift from God. You should give it to someone who you want to spend the rest of your life with. Why would you want someone who’s already been used. I wanted to wait until I was married.
Through out high school, I dated a lot of different guys. I love older guys. The problem with that was, most of them only wanted one thing. I never got serious with anyone. I figured if it was just casually dating, then they wouldn’t want anything.
My first part-time job was at a grocery store. I did not know that I was going to meet someone who would change my life forever. Jeremy was the quiet,shy type. He had an angel face. Plus, he was older. We did not hit it off right away. I really don’t remember talking to him much. Our conversations were limited to topics about work. I was not looking for a boyfriend. I was more concerned with getting into a great college and my extracurricular activities.
A year after I started working at Kroger, Jeremy asked me if I wanted to do something. It was my 15th birthday and I really did not have plans(except shopping.) I said okay. We went to a movie and putt-putt. I thought he was a nice guy, but I really did not want a relationship. Jeremy said he wanted to see me again. I was like sure why not. So we went out a few times again. On the next few dates, he started to get really touchy touchy. Now, I’m pretty old fashioned and I told him to stop. Everything was okay for a while, but then he started again. I felt so guilty because I like it when he held me close. I was beginning to fall for him. It was so nice being with him. I could talk to him about anything.
After about 9 months into the relationship, things started to heat up. We weren’t just holding hands or kissing anymore. We were to the point where we just had our underclothing on. There were times when he would try to take my panties off, but I wouldn’t let him. Jeremy started to get frustrated with me. He kept saying that he was 20 and still a virgin. I told him that he should be proud. I think this only made him more upset. He compared me to his friends’ girlfriends. I felt very confused. In my mind I was struggling between wanting to do what was right and wanting to do what I felt. I loved him but I did not wanted to do anything.
It was getting close to our one year anniversary. We decided to spend the day together on our anniversary. Later that night we went to his house. His parents were upstairs asleep. We started kissing on his couch.(This is my favorite part.) He is such a great kisser. Very sweet and tender. Before I knew it, our shorts were off. He got on top of me. I loved the way his body felt on top of mine. It was such a rush. My head was whirling. I felt dizzy. I told him that I didn’t want to do anything. He then proceeded to kiss my thighs and slowly ventured down. I was so scared because I was afraid his parents would walk in on us. I kept telling him over and over to stop. He came back up and pushed himself inside of me(without a condom.) The feeling was so tremendous. It hurt so bad. He pulled out and went upstairs to get a condom. This time the pain was less. He lasted for about 5 minutes. (Thank God!) Afterwards, we held each other tight. I think I was still in disbelief. For about a year, I felt very guilty. I couldn’t get past the fact that I disobeyed my parents and God.
That was two years ago. Jeremy and I are still together. We have been dating for over 3 years now. We have had good and bad times. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Jeremy is so devoted to me. He is my best friend and my true love. Even though I’m away at college, we are closer than we have ever been before: emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.
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