bebe

I knew my boyfriend Rick for about 6 or 7 years.. He was my older brothers best friend so he would come to my house sometimes to pick him up to go out… I was young and I didn’t really care about guys, so I never really talked to him or any of my brother’s friends. Only hi or bye. But in the begining of this year (late December, early January) he talked to me over the internet. I was shocked because I never talked to him before and it was so random for him to send me a message. So we started talking and we kind of became friends… I used to date one of his friends which is also one of my brothers friends… and that’s mostly what we would talk about at the time.. But we got really close as friends… and my ex boyfriend ( his and my brothers friend.) Started to get really annoying and literally would not leave me alone and was always jealous when other guys started to talk to me. So my brother helped me get him away from me. And that night ( april 5th) me and Rick (just friends at the time) were hanging out in my room. My mom works at a bar so she stays at work till 3 or 4. So Rick and I were just talking and laughing together for a long time. We told each other about our whole lives, things we were interested in, and things that we didn’t like. We had almost everything in common. Just before he was about to leave… (about 2 a.m.) We were saying bye, I hugged him, and we looked into each others eyes for a few seconds, that’s when I realized that I really liked him. And that was when we shared our first kiss. A week later he asked me to be his girlfriend. Well let me get to the point now. 3 weeks after being his girlfriend I fell in love with him, or atleast what I consider love,( caring for each other, wanted the best for one another, and having those butterflies in your stomach whenever you hear their name) we were together in my room like we’ve done many nights. We started to kiss and I got on top of him and took off my shirt. ( he has seen my breast before) he knew I was a virgin… I’ve talked about sex with him before and told him I was curious about it.. And to always bring a condom when he comes to my house in case I thought I was ready. Rick was 19 years old already so he wasn’t a virgin. Anyways, while I was on top of him, I felt my heart beating faster and faster. I knew I was ready, but I was terrified of sex.. He helped me get through that fear… which was mostly embarrassment because I didn’t know what I was doing.. He put on his condom while I took off my shorts. I got back on top of him and I felt him insert his penis… its the most painful thing I ever felt in my life. And he knew that… so he was trying to be as gentle as possible. I wanted to cry because of the pain.. But I didn’t let a tear drop come down my face. When he was finished, he said he was proud of me, I was proud of myself too! I know I did the right thing by having my first time with him. We’ve been together for 4 months now. He’s really close to most of my family and I recently met his mom and sister. And his little nephew seems to like me. We have sex on a regular basis now. And we’re trying new things, we tried oral sex ( I don’t really like giving… I hate the taste of sperm) and we are working on anal… I’m not over the pain from that yet… a lot of people would say that I’m too young to be doing these things, but I really don’t think so. I think that whenever you feel you’re ready, go for it. I’m sorry for those of you who weren’t able to have a good experience like I did… I would hate to write a story about someone raping me… I don’t know how it feels to have to live with the fact your 1st time wasn’t special, but I hope you will find someone who can take all the pain away.
Best wishes,
Bebe

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