Where it happened: His Dad's Apartment
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 8
Category: Straight
I was 18 when I lost my virginity to Ben.
I had known Ben since year 8. We lived two streets away from each other and pretty much became instant best friends. We would always be over at each other’s house, hanging out, doing homework, watching movies. Normal stuff really. Towards the end of high school however, Ben became a bit of a…erm…womanizer. He literally had every girl he met eating out of his hands. While I on the other hand went steady with an amazing total of two guys in high school. Both times we ended up breaking up because I wasn’t ready to have sex yet.
Ben of course had lost his virginity a long time ago, and at first I was really irked off at Ben’s free rein and view on sex. But eventually I got used to it – the fact that he would date any girl but me – and teased him endlessly about being a man slut. When school finished I stayed at home and went to uni while Ben moved down south to live with his brother, while he had a GAP year.
Every two months or so, he’d come back up to Brisbane to visit me, his mum and his dad (who are divorced). During his visits we pretty much hung out the way we used to in high school. It was actually really great seeing him, even if it wasn’t as often as I wanted.
Towards the end of the year, in late October to early November when he came up to visit for a month, things started to get insanely confusing. He was acting really weird and nervous around me. There was no more playful flirting; we no longer snuggled up together when we watched a movie, no longer hugged goodbye. There was no physical contact. That sounds weird, but he would always sort of touch me when we talked…you know his hand resting on my shoulder or our legs touching when we sat down next to each other. He’d ignore me when we went out with old friends from high school…and I’d always catch him staring at me. Yeah…insanely confusing.
Anyway when he moved back up in December, he asked me to go clubbing with him and our high school friends to celebrate. I’d never gone clubbing with him, actually I’d never gone clubbing at all. I wasn’t really into that whole scene, and wasn’t particularly fond of drinking either. I agreed to go anyway and ended up getting smashed. I don’t really remember much about that night. The only thing I really remember was Ben picking me up and carrying me out of the club because I’d tried to order another drink. Getting smashed was entirely accidental on my part, I’d never had more than a sip of whine at christmas and not knowing I was a light weight tried to keep up with Allie (friend). Anyway Ben ended up taking me back to his Dad’s apartment (in the city). I remember falling asleep in the cab and only coming around when I felt literally sick to the stomache. I was pretty lucky that his Dad was OS on business.. Having Ben freak out the enire night, while I puked everywhere was bad enough.
The next morning I of course felt like crap…hangovers suck… Ben looked after me though, it was really kind of nice having him fuss over me; that, and I was glad this wall between us was gone.
Sometime around Mid-day Ben forced me into having a fifth shower. I don’t know why it was the fifth one…but after that cold shower I was so refreshed. I seriously felt a thousand times better and we spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out in his room at his dad’s place.
While we were lounging on his bed watching MTV the conversation turned to sex and relationships. I started to tease him about his flippant view towards sex and love when he cupped his hand over my mouth and said, ‘I’ve only ever had sex; I haven’t made love yet.’ Then the next thing I know he was kissing me and I was kissing him back.
While we were kissing he told me that he loved me, that he’d want to kiss me for a long time and he’d been trying to tell me since October. I remember telling him that he was an idiot for not kissing me sooner and tellin him that I loved him too.
We started kissing again, and his hands slowly crept under my shirt. He traced tiny circles on my stomach and was kind of sneaky about undoing my bra. It really did take long for me to practically melt beneath him. Ben definately knew what he was doing. While he was kissing my neck he whispered that he wanted “to make love to me.”
I giggled of course, told him he was being corny and continued to kiss him. After some more kissing Ben reminded me that I hadn’t really told him if it was want I wanted. I remember blushing so badly…apparently I looked like a tomato…or that’s what he says anyway. I told him I was embarrassed about being a virgin, that I had no clue what I was supposed to do and that I was kind of scared. He kissed me so softly on my forehead and told me that I didn’t have to be embarssed, that there was nothing to be scared of and that he would guide me through it.
Ben didn’t actually have sex with me straight away after that. He gave me my first orgasm when he was fingering. It took a realy long time and was actually kind of frustrating. But he was patient and kept whispering how much he loved me, making sure I felt comfortable and reassuring me it was ok if I had changed my mind.
When we did actually start having sex, he was so sweet and gentle. He started slowly, kissing me the whole time and making sure I was ok. He kept asking me what felt good, if I was hurting, if I wanted him to stop, or go faster or slower. I suppose I was one of the lucky ones, coz it didn’t hurt me at all when he first entered me. It was more of an uncomfortable throbbing. I didn’t orgasm but towards the end things started to feel really, really good.
We didn’t use a condom, and I’m not to fussed about it. I was already on the pill due to period related issues and Ben used condoms religiously when he slept with other girls, so STD’s weren’t an issue. All I can say is that, I have no regrets about my first time. It was with someone I love and luckily am still with. I’m glad that Ben, knew what he was doing and so thankful that he made my first time was so wonderful. Ben let me go at my own pace and has so far been a really understanding and caring partner.
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