When I , I attending a frat party with my older sister. Needless to say, I got pretty liquored up, and awoke the next morning in bed with some boy I’d never seen before in my life. My clothes were lying on the floor, there were blood stains on the sheets (broken hymen) and I had no memory of my lost innocence.
Afraid, I quickly got out of bed and began putting my clothes on. The boy lying in the bed awoke, and called out to me: “hey, baby, leaving so soon?”
I was an embarrassed old. I didn’t know then that since I was too drunk to say yes, I had been taken advantage of. “I don’t even know your name!” I sobbed. To his credit, the boy, Jeff, came and put his arms around me. “I’m so sorry,” he said. I told him “last night was a mistake. I can’t believe I had sex!”
It was a full two months later that my pregnancy was confirmed. I was floored. I booked an abortion the following day, and I told Jeff, who wanted nothing to do with the baby. I made it as far as the operating table, but I left. I couldn’t go through with killing my baby, and decided to put her up for adoption. I didn’t call Jeff to tell him I was having the baby.
Seven months later, I gave birth to twins! Katie Emma Elisabeth and Hayley Amber Teresa. I , and made another decision — to be their mother.
This was the hardest thing I have ever done. I work two jobs to pay for university while I am both mother and father to my old daughters. I wouldn’t erase them for anything, but I wish I had been more careful with my virginity.
It’s something that can never be regained, and if I had another life to live, I would save it all for marriage!!
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