Where it happened: brothel
Langauge: English
Sex: Male
Rating: 5
Category: Straight
My first time was when I was 24. I am an only child and I was extremely shy and naive as a teenager. I was also extremely overweight most of my life and only began to loose weight when I was 20, dropping 40kg in two years. I spent most of my teenage years by myself playing computer games and living with my single mother. I started university when I was 22 and I was completely overwhelmed by the social life. I tried very hard to fit in and socialize with the uni crowd but never found anyone to date. I was always a complete nervous wreck talking to any girl, even in a classroom setting.
When I was 24 I was on a semester in Europe and I left on a long weekend on my own in Amsterdam. I spent the entire day searching for a prostitute that I would loose my virginity with and I was willing so spend more than the usual price so I could enjoy myself. I finally settled on beautiful two girls I found in the red light district. Then talked me into double the price and they went to work on me. It was not like the porno I expected, but very mechanical and it was over very quickly. There were two girls one blonde Slovakian lady who said she was 30 and the other was a Romanian brunette and she said she was 24. They gave my the choice of who I wanted oral and sex with and I chose the blonde for oral and the brunette for sex. i thought the younger girl would be tighter and the older woman more oralally experienced. The blonde slipped a condom on me and went to work on my joint. I was about to cum within a few minutes bu then she took the condom off and put another one on for the brunette. I did the brunette missionary style and came withing 30 seconds. It was all over so fast. I was out of $200 and back on the street in under an hour. I felt totally empty, void of any satisfaction. I spent the rest of the weekend searching for satisfaction and spent almost $2000 in the process of finding it, but in the end I felt worse after every girl I visited.
I had to cut my Euro trip short because I spent so much money on prostitutes. I have visited working girls and massage parlors occasionally in the years that followed, and always left with the same empty feeling. I was worried that I would never have a true emotional relationship with anyone of the opposite sex for many years and finally had my first girlfriend when I was 28. My relationship lasted 8 months and was undone by my cheating on my girlfriend by visiting another pair of prostitutes, which was a very disturbing experience. I recently had a STD/HIV text which showed negative results, so I should consider myself very lucky.
I never want to pay for sex again and I think that people should wait to have sex with someone they love. What I did to myself was to make sex out to be a business transaction and not an emotional outlet of any kind and now I find it very hard to maintain any relationship.
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