I have now read many people’s accounts of their first time and also many accounts
of what people should and shouldn’t do, not to mention people’s complaints as well. Well
I can’t really stand by and read people telling each other how to enjoy life and not do
something about it. I am a virgin, yes, a 19 year old virgin, and chances are I will stay
that way for a few more years. I know that many of these stories are true- even the ones
about threesomes and the like. I have lived my life, and I have had the opportunity to
partake in the joy that is sex, sometimes my stories would sound familiar to the ones that
men dream about, but I have not yet done so. I also thought as many writers that girls are
notoriously self-destructive, and I still hold that belief about most of the female
population. But first, my thoughts on those people who inform others as to how to enjoy
life; put a sock in it! Yes, I am horrified by some peoples lack of forethought, but it is
not like these people can plan on when they will make their final choice, I, for one would
not take a risk such as that, but I cannot tell people how to live, and I am appalled that
someone can think themselves intelligent enough to comment on actions which they were
not involved with or even present for. I for one, find the stories about two people truly in
love finally joining in the beautiful act of lovemaking wonderful, I only hope that I am as
happy when I finally decide to commit to that act of love.
Now, to those who are depressed about being virgins; yeah, I know your pain, it’s
not great changing sheets so often and getting to know your shower head altogether too
much. Well, I am one by choice, and trust me, sometimes I have doubted that I made the
right choice, especially after I turned down a possible foursome with three women I
would never see again. Such are the decisions I feel I have to make in life. I am not
going to say I am waiting because God told me to or because I am going to wait until
marriage; I am just going to wait until I know I will not regret my actions. Now for my
story- if anyone cares to take knowledge or example with this feel free- I am submitting it
for the same reason I read these, namely for educational purposes. I have had several
girlfriends in my life- short and tall, big busted and flat chested; I have had relationships
that have lasted from years to hours, and the like. I by no means pretend to know
everything, but I do know more now than I did six years ago when I asked out a girl for
the first time- her answer was simple- her FRIEND said: “with you?!?” Suffice to say My
love life started out pretty badly. Well, to make a long story short, my hit-and-miss
relationships continued to be all misses for many years, as I liked a lot of girls, but they
didn’t like me; more and more I became convinced that women were inherently
destructive; I couldn’t understand as more and more women turned from me, to guys who
treated women like trash ( by the way- for those of you convinced I am repulsive, I am
6Æ5ö and 185 pounds- IÆm not built, but IÆm not a weakling either). Finally, after my first
successful relationship bombed, I just decided the hell with it and got into a very physical
relationship which only lasted for two months until she left for college; disappointed with
that, I turned to a more emotional relationship. I decided that a purely physical
relationship wasn’t what I wanted and I thought I’d see what it was like on the other side
of the fence. I talked to one of the most shy girls I know, who I had known for a while
and thought she was very nice. She was very intelligent, had beautiful eyes, the most
gorgeous smile in the world, and the rest of her was just the same. I figured it would last
maybe a couple of weeks, well, that was over a year and three months ago, and I am still
going out with her. She is wonderful. She has strong views on virginity, which makes
me glad I kept mine; she also intends to wait until marriage, and she has never, and will
never hear me complain about that; she is different from all the girls that are shallow and
more concerned with a guy’s money and car, which I find here at college a lot. When we
kiss it is amazing, and when I touch her, I feel as though I am living the dream life; she is
so beautiful, it really is like a dream, but we can have a real discussion, it is so
wonderful; I have never before had a girl who could make me feel like she does and be
able to truly communicate with her. I worship this girl, but I have never told her I love
her, because I do not know if I do. It sounds so bad, but it is true- I have never told any
girl I love them- she doesn’t seem to have a problem with it, she knows how I feel about
her. Someday I know it will happen though, someday I will tell her I love her; I will tell
her because I think I do. This is for every guy who says women are self-destructive and
shallow; yes, most of them are, and a great deal of them are cold and heartless, but think
about how guys act toward them; if all men want is sex, there is no reason to be mad if
all women want is money, looks or a fancy car. All I wanted was happiness, and I got it,
at a time and in a form I least expected. To everyone; if it is your time, then I wish
happiness on you both; I do advise people take precautions, but in the end it is their
choice, the act of making love is a sharing of two bodies, just take a moment to think
about what might be in the other personÆs body first. And please, I beg of you, do not
bring a child into this world if you do not intend to care properly for it.
Thank you,
BMW
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