Where it happened: his house
Langauge: english
Sex: Female
Rating: 5
Category: Straight
Ok here it goes…. Before I begin the reason my title is Second chance is because I wasnt really a text book virgin, see I was raped when I was 6 when I went to New York to see family.I never told my parents because I was so ashamed and scared the only person who knew my secret was my grandmother I eventuall told my boyfriend so he knew before we did it. With that I was always timid with guys and never really got that close to males. I had boyfriends but I always kept it as long distance realtionships because I knew thst sex would eventually pop up and it did on more than one occasion but I was always freaked out about it and I always seemed to spaz out over a guy touching my thigh. we always ened breaking up when they figured out I wouldnt have sex with them but anyways I always knew of him but I really started talking to him when I was 15 he was about 51/2 yrs older than me so you do the math. well let me fast forward a few months we never had any really hot make out sessions we always kissed touched a little but he only fingered me once and very breifly because it hurt and I was scared. but for the most part I seemed to be very relaxed around him and I did not freak out over him touching me he was a very kind and approchable guy. well anyways that night he took me out to Mikata it is a japanese sushi place where they cook and do tricks in front of you very romantic then we went back to his house and we started kissing I thought it was just going to be a makeout session when he asked me if I wanted to do it. Not even thinking I said yeah but inside I was terrified all these old memories came back but I did not change my mind he asked about 5 more times. he did not finger me and he wasnt small by any means. when he put it in I felt alot of pressure. besides it did not help that i was squeezing every mucsle in my body scared to death it hurt so bad tears rolled down the side of my face. I tried not to make a noise or cry, he couldnt see me because it was dark. I didnt want to show him how bad I was freaking out but he went in slow long strokes at least as slow as he could because he was really anxious he wasnt a virgin but he wanted it bad I made him stop after a while because it hurt to bad I think I was so nervous that I wasnt aroused. even though I had been penatrated before I still hurt just as bad I felt alot of pressure at first when the tip was in then a sharp pain I think I was just really freaking otu over the emotional stuff than anything. I just laid their as he gently put back on my thongs and dressed me he helped me up and we drove in dead silence back to my house he walked me to the door kissed me good night and I told him I loved him and I did not regret it I waddled in the house and took some advil we tried again about a day later and things ran much smoother I loved him then and love him still we have been together for about 2 years and I hope to marry him when I get out of school. I love you so much and you are a blessing in my life you are everything to me ronnie
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