Where it happened: my house/bed
Langauge: English
Sex: Female
Rating: 2
Category: Straight
I had been in a long distance relationship with this guy for about a year. We had never seen each other in real life. Yes, I never thought I would be a part of something like this either, but it happened. We would talk everyday for at least 4-5 hours online. I was planning on visiting him over the summer.
Anyway, one day I found out that he made out with another girl. Me being my jealous self was extremely upset and mad. We had a long conversation, online again, and he told me he loved me and not her and he also told this to that other girl through chat.
Well, the relationship that had always been great started falling apart. I could not trust him anymore and without trust, nothing works.
I had met this guy who was 24 (when I was 16) a couple months back during a friends birthday party. He had gotten my number then, I thought we would hang out and be friends, but he hadn’t called me until that day. He asked if I would want to hang out and I said sure. That same day we made out. I did not know until then that I was in a manic episode at the time, triggered by the cheating.
I knew he was really experienced, but I didn’t really care about that part. I think on our 2nd date I gave him a blowjob. He thought I wasn’t a virgin. One day I just invited him over at my house very early in the morning; half an hour after my mom would be gone to her work. He came over. I had changed into just a long t-shirt that I had gotten from Amsterdam. I was wearing nothing else. Even when typing this I can’t believe these happened.
We went to my room, were making out in my bed; clothes came off and I brought a condom from the next room and we had sex. It took him a while to get in, and it hurt a lot, cause I am petty tiny. I wasn’t feeling anything at all but was pretending to. And then it was over.
We went out to meet my friends and when I went to the bathroom there was a tiny bit of blood on my underwear but that was it. We had sex a bunch of times after that, but the first 4 didn’t do anything to me.
I do not regret anything I have done. I had no control over it. But even if I did have control over it, I don’t know if I would have changed anything. Losing my virginity opened a ton of doors for me, and allowed me to be sexually open, and share my body with people I liked/loved after that without having to worry about anything.
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