First Time, Waited So Long

It was May 13, 2000, the day before Mother's Day. My girlfriend was 14 and I am 17. The day before I went down to take a shower and my parents were gone. When I came upstairs after taking a shower, she was writing me a letter on the computer. She said don't read it until I am finished, so I waited until she was done. I read the letter and she went outside on the screened in porch. I came out there and she would not even look at me. In the letter she said she thought she was ready, because we had been going out for 3 months. I was a little scared and a little excited. We didn't do anything that day but I thought about it a lot. The next day I told her I was a pussy and she was like no you are not if you don't want to do it that is ok. But the thing is I really wanted to go for it. So we had been out all day and we came to my house and played around for a few hours, watching TV and kissing. We talked about doing it (as we said). She was like if you don't want to then we won't. I knew for sure that my mom and dad were not going to be home so I went down stairs and got some protection (my dad always has some). I came up stairs again and said nothing. She was laying on the floor under the fan. I got down on the floor with her and we started kissing and climbing on top of her. I pulled the condom out of my back pocket and said look what I found, I must have stuck to my pocket when I sat down. She kind of laughed and that kind of broke things a little. So she was like are you sure you want to do it, and I said I really did. So layed on the floor for a long time just kissing and talking. So finally she asked me if this was as far as we wanted to go, and I said what about you? We didn't really say anything but kept going until I had my shirt off and then my Kakis. I had swimming trunks on under that because I had been swimming that day. She took off her shorts and go back on top of me. She then asked me if I wanted to go further, and I said "All systems Go!" Then she rolled off of me and I took off my shorts and shoes. She said where is the condom and I got it and she said put it on and I was like OK! She then took off her panties and I got on top of her. We kissed for a little while longer and then she said go for it. I stuck my hand down to her area and figured out what to do. I had a hard time at first finding where to put it because we were both virgins and had no sexual experience. I said I may need your help (wasn't that smooth!). She didn't say anything so I just went on. I looked at her and said it that where I need to be, she said yeah. I had a very hard time getting it in, and kind of felt stupid but I should not have because everything takes time. I pushed it in slowly, I really love this girl, and I didn't want to hurt her (emotionally or physically). I go in a pretty good was and I saw her eyes squint, so I immediatly stopped. I said are you OK, she said Yeah I am. I tried to push farther and I did, her eyes squinted again, and again I made sure she wanted to continue, she did. About 10 strokes was all I had after that and I came, thank god for condoms! The first thing I said was FUCK. She said what I was like that is all I have got, sorry. She did't say anything, except thats fine. I felt so great after that, but a little confused because I didn't know what to think. We got dressed and I took her home and we talked some. Right after I got home she called and we talked about it a little but not much because we were on the phone. I really love this girl and I want people to know "Think about it the before you do it and it would probably be good to make plans because I was clueless". I hope we stay together for a long time and I think we will after tonight. And one more thing "Happy Mother's Day Mom!"