A mistake that costed me a friend and almost my life!

Ok it all started out when i lied to my mom and told her i was going bowling then spending the night at a friends house! Well my friend said lets go to a party at holiday inn. so i agreed, thinking there was gonna be lotsa people there. Wekll when we went there were 2 guys and us 2. The 2 guys were 18. Then they started pulling out Zima and Vodka, Im like sure ok no big deal. then they got me drinking some. well thats about the last thing i remembered. the first time i got drunk, someone gave me Zima and vodka shots. that was the last thing i remembered. from what i heard i was running through holiday inn naked. i only remembered bits and pieces. But the next VIVID memeory was when i woke up at 6am, everyone was passed out! I woke up and took an hour shower, i was in so much pain i could barely walk! there was blood on the bed so from what i gathered i knew what had happened! I sat in the shower and cried. i was so upset about this that i nearly OD a couple times.I even lost my best friend b/c the guy who fucked me , she liked.The on e thing that i have, the one thing that actually means sumthin in life was taken away from me by someone i dont even know, or LOVED! something thats non refundable. so here i am, i lost my virginity at the age of 14!Please if you are put ther think twice befoer going to a party. this still haunts me to this day and i havent forgave myself for that night! if anyone is out there who wants to reply on my story and comment or say sumthin,